11.14.09
Today- I’ve bummed it all day! i don’t know what I’m doing to myself, I feel like I’m Breaking myself down. I stress everyday, I wishh things could just get better for me. Nothing good ever happends to Brittany. Life is all so wrong! When most people out there are living the best life they could ever live. Its fucked up how I get treated, Its fucked up how the people I need aren’t never there when I need them. Its 10:28 & I’m crying for the first time in a lonng time. Why? I don’t even know. I keep asking myself “Why me?” What did I do to deserve this? It keeps getting worse for me day by day. Well when is that day going to come when everything is at its best. When am I going to stop getting lied too, When am I going to start getting treated better. When will he realize how bad I feel inside, When will I stop being taken for granted. I do & do for him and all he does is take advantage. I take back everything I posted in that bulletin yesterday. ERASE IT ALL! I want to apologize to myself for everything i’ve done ;; I’ve managed to hurt myself so much. I think its time to throw my past in the garbage & Start over again. Its going to be the most hardest thing i’ve ever done in my whole 15 years of living. But i’m going to start over ;; I’ve always told myself that the best way to do it is to get out of alabama. & I think i’m finally going to do it. Its time ;; I love everyone here but I can’t take it anymore. I’m sorry.
